Hi, my name is Jerry. Two years ago, when I was a freshmen, I have a mental illness that is self-harm. I never thought that I might have this illness, but luckily I can handle it on time. From there I learned that out there still have people who worry about me, there are still many beautiful things ahead, and this is not the end but just challenges that I need to face. And here is how I can save my life...
I didn't remember exactly what happened that lead me to self-harm. But, I think since my parent just divorced. I can't accept it and start having negative, bad feeling and thought. Also my mom is not taking care of me like before and my dad moved to a new state and live there, which make me feel more lonely and sadness.
What's wrong with him
I don't want to go home...
My life is a mess ...
Some of my close friend seem like noticed something. They asked me, but at that time I'm not even understand myself so I keep telling them that I'm fine, everything normal, and nothing wrong with me.
Did you guy notice Jerry's expression?
After 1 week, with lots of questions from others, I start asking myself and search up some information base on what people saying about me at that time. The result I get is ADHD. Some of expression I have at that time are often lose focus in class, lost in thought, and can't sleep. But I think it will be fine because it not very much to have serious mental illness.
I think it is ok
But things getting worse and worse in the next 2 weeks. I still have those expression, and some new like often have deep pessimistic statements, thought of death so start cutting myself. Usually, at this time I already have clinical depression which lead to self-harm, but I didn't know until now.
Thanks to my friends who came to visit me and detected my self-harm behavior on time. Save my whole life and also made my mom changed. Now, I have people who I can share my problems with and taking care of me, too.
You should let me know and share with others. I'm sorry for leave you alone.
The next day, my mom bringed to doctor to get treatment. To managing my illness, I focus on my feeling, communicate with other in whatever way I feel the most comfortable, and give time for myself to process.