You can't do this! You can't swoop in, bring me here, give me all this-and then say it can't work. That's cruel, A. Cruel.
I know. That's why this is a first date. That's why this is the first time we've ever met.
How can you say that? How can you erase everything else?
He's a good guy. He might even be a great guy. And today's the day you first met. Today's your first date. He a going to remember being in the bookstore. He's going to remember the first time he saw you, and how he was drawn to you, not because you're beautiful, but because he could see your strength. He could see how much you want to be part of the world.
He'll remember talking with you, how easy it was, how engaging. He'll remember not wanting it to end, and asking you if you wanted to do something else. He'll remember you asking him his favorite place, and he'll remember thinking about here., and want to show it to you. The gorcery store, the stories in the aisles, the first time you saw his room-that will be there, and I won't change a single thing. His pulse is my heartbeat. The pulse is the same. I know he will understand you. You have the same kind of heart.
I can't just switch like that.
But what about you?
Why are you doing this?
You'll find things in him that you find in me. Without the complications.
I know. He'll have to prove it to you. Every day, he'll have to prove he's worthy of you. And if he doesn't, that's it. But I think he will.
So this is goodbye?
Because I have to go, Rhiannon. For real this time. I have to go far away. There are things I need to find out. And I can't keep stepping into your life. You need something more than that.