"I decided to do something about it this fall when Sarah, the girl I have a crush on, said, “Oh my gosh . . . you are so skinny.” "
"oh my gosh... you are so skinny."
"I did research, and started lifting heavier weights at lower reps and supplemented my meals with weight-gainer shakes, egg whites, boiled yams, and tubs of cottage cheese."
"For the rest of fall, I did countless push-ups and curled free weights until I couldn’t bend my arms. I got ridiculously strong and defined, but I wasn't gaining weight. I wanted to be thicker."
"I was walking down the hallway at the end of the day and must have twisted awkwardly because suddenly my zipper literally exploded, and all my T-shirts spilled out of my pants. Luckily, the hallway was empty and I was wearing a belt."
"I slowly peeled off the layers, one at a time. I took off my pants and peeled off my sweatpants, too, down to my undies. I dried myself off with a washcloth."
"I don’t know what to wear, so I lay out four different outfits on the floor as if they’re chalk outlines of people. A car horn honks ten minutes later and I still haven’t decided on an outfit. Maybe I’ll just wear all of them."