So in today's session, I want to share something personal story about my heroin addiction. Hopefully this will either persuade you guys not to or to rethink your decisions, especially pertaining to your life.
I was around the age 15 or 16 when it all began. My mom had just died from lung cancer and I was deeply depressed. I was heartbroken and couldn't deal with the pain of not having the woman who had always been there for me exist in my life.
So one day, I came to the realization that I wasn't gonna be able to get over this pain without some form of help. That's when my friend turned enemy, heroin, was introduced to me. At first, I took it for the purpose of helping me relieve the pain and heartache that I was feeling.
At first, I was taking it only once a week. Then it became a habit. Once a week became twice a week to three times a week to multiple times a week till it became an everyday thing. The crazy thing is I knew that this was bad for me, but I didn't care; I loved it. Not because it's a pain reliever, but because it gave me this euphoric feeling. What I didn't know was that I was slowly but surely killing myself.
One day, I was at home just doing my daily dose of heroin. All of a sudden, I begin to get dizzy and I pass out. I don't remember much about that day, but I do remember someone coming in there and calling the paramedics. The rest is a blur, but I am standing here today because someone came in there and saved my life.
With all this being said, that experience helped me realize something. Life gets hard, loved ones die, but doing drugs isn't the answer. This doesn't make your life any easier or any better. In fact, your health suffers from drugs such as heroin. My brain was slowly losing its white matter. In turn I was slowly dying. If anything, your shortening your life. For me, I realized that my mother wouldn't want me to live my life without her this way. So in conclusion, don't try to through life with a filter; live life unfiltered and unhindered.