I know there is a "me" that nobody else knows or see, but if other people could hear what I'm thinking some days, no one would ever speak to me.
I struggle to keep my mind from wandering off to thoughts that would effect the way I see things to be.
What are you doing?!
I have tried drowning myself in music to try to keep me from getting bored and having my strange thoughts but they still seem to slip in my mind.
Maybe in the near-future.
One time when I was walking down the street to my house a car came barreling down the road and began driving at me like it was gonna run me over. The whole time I only stood there frozen, not in fear, but fascination for this drivers recklessness.
What is this driver doing? Who gave then their license?
The car luckily didn’t run me over but instead pulled up besides me and at the window was my grandfather. It was sad that I didn’t recognize the car to be my grandparents and that I didn’t fear for my own life. The scenarios I made up in my head and the created solutions I made for them made me less fearful of things.
I haven’t quite learned how to stop my wandering thoughts but hopefully in the near future I will learn how to control them.