I can be happy if I am allowed to be free and love Winston. Before I met him, I only would have sex with other party members for me and the feeling Now it has more purpose.
I am so bored with my life because of the parties strict rules. They have outlawed everything I love to do and forced me to live a double life. I want to be able to love and have sex with Winston without fear.
The ability to be apart of the party while breaking the rules is that is what's good about my life. I am able to have all the sex and rebel all I want ehile not being caught. I have found love.