I knew right where it was - it was right near Central Park South and all - I couldn't find it. I must've been drunker than I thought. I kept walking and walking.
Then. finally, I found it. What it was, it was partly frozen and partly not. But I didn't see any ducks around. I walked all around the whole damn lake- but I didn't see a single duck.
Finally, I sat down on this bench, where it wasn't so dark. I was still shivering like a bastard. I thought I get pneumonia and die. I started to picture millions of jerks coming to my funeral.
Holden jeep walking in the Central Park and he's trying to find the Lagoon.
Anyway, I kept worrying that I was getting pneumonia, with all those hunk of ice in my hair, and was going to die. I felt sorry as hell for my mother and father. Especially my mother, because she isn't over my brother died.
He found out the Lagoon is partly frozen and partly not.
When the weather is nice, my parents go out frequently and stick a bunch of flowers on old Allie's grave. I went a couple times, but I cut it out. I don't enjoy seeing him in that crazy. Surrounded by dead guys and tombstone.
He sat down on a bench and he was thinking what if he died. (Holden imagine his funeral)
I started to think about old Phoebe would feel if I got pneumonia and died. So I got the hell out of the park and went home.
He feel sorry for his mother because she isn't over at allies death.
Holden doesn't like to visit Holden grave because he thinks that Allie shouldn't be there surrounded by dead people
Holden thinking about Phoebe. He went to home and check Pheobe