Hey, I'm Holden and I just got kicked out of my fourth school, Pencey. Depresses the hell out of me. Anyways, I've been thinking about heading West and becoming a deaf mute, but I'm not sure because of Phoebe and all. Hell, I don't know what I'm going to do with myself. I guess for now I could tell you about my life and how it all started going down hill.
Sunny & Holden: Room Scene
Do you mind cutting it out? I'm not in the mood, I just told you. I had an operation.
Listen, I was sleepin' when that crazy Maurice woke me up. If you think I'm--
Holden & Sally: Bar scene
Yeah. Wanna talka Sally. Very important. Put it on. Wake 'er up! Wake 'er up , hey. Attaboy.
In the book, "The Catcher in the Rye" by J.D. Salinger, the theme that stands out to me most is Holden's struggle to find his identity. It is clear that Holden doesn't know who he is in life right now and he feels like he doesn't fit in anywhere, so changing himself and lying is him trying to belong. Not only does he not know himself, but ever since his brother died he is scared to love and open up to anyone, which stops him from establishing good relationships.
I feel like this scene is a perfect example of how Holden is struggling to find himself in life. Right off the bat when Maurice first pitches his sale to Holden, he knew that he was getting involved in something messy, but he went along with it anyways and continued on to lie about his age. Then, he cleans himself up and puts a happy face on, even though he was just so depressed he wanted to die and when Sunny finally makes it to his room, he gets so nervous that he lies about having surgery. When really he just couldn't follow through.
Another major scene to me is when Holden goes to the bar, gets wasted, and calls for Sally. This is major to me because all Holden does is wonders around New York going to random bars, lying about his age, and turning alcohol and cigs to solve his problems. This specific scene intrigued me because it goes hand in hand with Holden not knowing what he wants because he is constantly alienating himself, yet craves human affection.