Hello my name is Holden, lately I have been very depressed and thought about my dead brother a lot. After I was kicked out of pencey ive been on a wild ride around New York. I hooked up with a prostitute, talked to very nice nuns, argued about goose and fish with a cab driver, and met up with some friends I havent talked to for awhile. I try and talk to my little sister whenever im able too.
Scene 1: Sunny Leaving Holden room.
"She picked up her polo coat off the bed. 'so long crumb-bum,' she said" (Salinger 110)
"Allie heard us talking about it, and he wanted to go, and I wouldnt let him. I told him he was a child. So once in awhile, now, when I get very depressed. I keep saying to him 'Okay. Go home and get your bike and meet me in front of Bobby's house. Hurry up. (Salinger 110)
Depression is a huge impact in Holden's life as he is always remembering his brother Allie. Holden through out the book is often lead to depression, psychotic thoughts, and suicide.
As Sunny leaves Holden becomes even more depressed then happy. He then thinks about Allie and a scenario in which he could've changed differently.