I just want to stay home and drink the pain away. Its the only thing that makes me feel numb.
I don't want to go to work, maybe I should just stop going altogether. Its becoming so hard to get through the days sober, sometimes I cant. If I quit work, I can hide here.
I feel so anxious. No one can know the truth about me, no one will understand. They will label me . I cant go through that again.
Does she know I'm not OK? Can she smell alcohol on me? I think I'm going to have a panic attack. Its so hard to keep pretending.
I will never be normal like them. I will never have a perfect life. I don't deserve happiness. I'm hopeless.
I feel trapped in the same cycle everyday, I cant get out. There's no light at the end of the tunnel.I want to give up.
