Alfred is writing a "letter" to Hannelore while he is on the boat. He explains and describes how he go there and uses specific dates like the date they left. He explains the meaning of the name of the boat.
Alfred tells her about the sinking ship. He tells her about how he is stuck with a Latvian woman (Emilia) whose newborn was taken into a lifeboat without her.
He tells her that now is the perfect time for not only reflection but for honesty too. He asks how could he have truly loved her and explained the fact that he couldn't and shouldn't. Not after what she had said. He says "You see, fear is a hunter. It encircles us when we are unarmed and least expect it. And then we are forced to make decisions (Sepetys 353)."
Alfred wants to go through the pack Emilia is holding. She swats him away and doesn't notice that she starts speaking polish. Alfred seems confused and asks her if she is Polish. She screams that she is Polish and Alfred self proclaims himself a hero.
He tries shoving her into the water but fails to do so. He fell backward and started singing/reciting. He spits on her and jumps up near the last words of the song. He slips and hits his head on the edge of the boat.
He smiles and says "But-ter-fly" Emilia tries to help him but he stands up and falls into the water.