Going to this new group things is pretty heartbreaking even tho we literally sit in the heart of jesus and i dont really know just listening to what people are going through and the kind of cancer they have its depressing and i get an erie feeling in my stomache when i start talking about myself and the things i have going on but hopefully that goes away Agustus makes me smile everytime though sothat makes things a little bit better.
Today Augustas and I are going to the park to have and "epic picnic''so he says there will be home made sandwiches and bags of chips ,he told me he was going to pick me up after the group meeting we have today at noon.i have no clue at alll where this park is at bnut im going to have to see
The park and its 'Epic picnic'' was great the sandwiches with a little bit sawgey but they were still good Augustas told me stories about his childhood and the termatice experiances hes been through and also about his leg had how that had all happened
Agustus told me and the end of the night as we sat in the grass that he had went to the doctar and the MRI lit up like a christmas tree and that his cancer had come back and that the cancer had been devoloping in his bonesand that he would have to satrt cemo therapy and soon as possible.
This morning before i went off to go see Agustas i had a bad pain in my chest i dont know if it was because i was stressed or my lungs had been acting out again but my mom had ran up the stairs and had picked me up of the ground i do rember fenting but i did scream beacuse the pain in my chest was sharp and it had felt like someone was stabbing me in the chest over and over again with a knife .
its been a week ever since the insident of me almost "dying'' happened Augustus is doing so much better this week for him has been so smooth and he finally is done with his cemo and hes better than ever ,i havent told him about the pain in my chest i have been getting offten but i dont want to have him worry hwe has enough to think about right now.