Holden Caulfield, age 17. I was a student at Pencey, a place ridden full of phonies and where I had been too yellow to do anything about my problems there. My parents had no idea I had been kicked out of school, again. Failing 4 of my 5 classes english was the only one I got by with. But with Christmas vacation coming up, I decided I was going to leave early, wander around New York a bit before I went home on Wednesday; they wouldn’t know I had been kicked out then. After staying at hotels I had become more and more depressed, self loathing and wishing I could die. Only thing I was holding onto was my little sister Phoebe, though D.B was in Hollywood and Allie was dead. I never found myself in worse shape than ever, especially after Stradlater beat the crap outta me, oh and Sunny being no talk even when I was still paying her. I was lonely. Though while conversing with people around me a new name, age or back story is always something to put on.
“I didn’t care much, though. They were so ignorant, and they had those sad, fancy hats on and all… if some girl in an awful-looking hat, for instance comes all the way to new york from seattle washington, for god’s sake- and ends up getting up early in the morning to see the goddamn first show at radio city music hall, it makes me so depressed. I can’t stand it” ( Stalinger 75)
Holden’s actions displayed depression and sadness when he was reminiscing of childhood memories of him and his dead little brother Allie. He beings to speak to Allie as if he was still alive, he does this because he feels the sense of loneliness and he doesn't have anyone to talk to and he needs someone. After this he beings to reach to faith, and beings to pray, which he explains he doesn’t do often.
“After old sunny was gone, i sat in the chair for a while and smoked a couple of cigarettes. It was getting daylight outside. Boy i felt miserable. I felt so depressed , you can’t imagine. What is did, I started talking , sort of out loud, to Allie. I do that sometimes when I get very depressed”. (Stalinger 98)