"I must not become emotional . I have already began to notice signs of emotiona instability and forgetfulness the first symptom of burnout."
Deterioration progressing. I have become absent-minded. Algernon died two days ago. Dissection shows my predictions were right. his brain has decreased in weight. I guess the same thing is or will soon be happening to me. Now that it's definite, I don't want it to happen. I put Algernon's body in a cheese box and buried him.
Dr.Strauss came to see me again I would not open the door I told him to go away. I want to be left to myself, I became touchy and irritable, I feel the darkness closing in. "It's hard to throw off the thoughts of suicide." Its strange to pick up a book that you just read a few months ago and don't remember anything about it.
My landlady Mrs.Flynn is very worried about me, if I am sick is one thing but if i'm a loafer that's another thing and she won't have it. I told her "I think I'm sick." Mrs.Flynn thinks I'm crazy to put flowers on a mouses grave, but I told her Algernon was special.
Mrs.Flynn called a strange doctor to see me. She was afraid I was going to die. He asked me if I had any friend or relatives I told him I did not have any but I told him about Algernon and we used to run races together.
I have no more money and Mrs.Flynn says I got to go to work somewhere and pay the rent because I am over two months behind. I used to work at Donnegans Plastic Box Company, but I don't want to go back there because they all knew me when I was smart and maybe the will laugh at me.