My brain turned back on. My heart was silent. My grip was brave and strong. My eyes were clear. Finding the origin of the question I turned and looked:
The pain had left my body. Focus and consciousness re-entered my body. Feeling the floor underneath me once again I approached my friend. For a few fleeting minutes I forgot my issues. I for the first time in months felt content. My life was no longer a battle, but a victory.
"how was your weekend?"
so this is what being relaxed feels like....
Being able to fell not scared was amazing. To feel this sense of completion and sureness was welcoming. Having the ability to know that I don't have to always be worried was exciting. Seeing a light at the end of the tunnel was fantastic. For the first time in a while I was taking my life back.