A distraught Tim sits down to dinner with his family, only to be confronted by his father about the letter he had received earlier. This only increases Tim's fears and sends him into a panic.
In anguish, Tim struggles within his own mind as to if he should flee, or face his fate in the war. He is torn between his moral and ethical beliefs and his fear of ridicule and dishonor.
Tim, who is beginning to wear down, happens to come by an old fishing resort and decides to inquire within, as he is looking to lay low while he figures things out. At the cabin, Tim meets a man named, Elroy Berdahl, who he will credit as being the one who saves him.
Gripped with the reality that he is a mere 20 yards from the Canadian shore, Tim has to deal with a mentally emotional struggle. Time seems to stand still as he weighs his options. He is able to feel every aspect of his being and surrounding in that moment.
He must have planned it...
As a consequence of his decision to return home and go to war, Tim is left to suffer the emotional tole of the atrocities of war. A burden which he takes home and endures in silence.
In order to resolve his emotional suffering and strife, Tim decides to chronicle his story in a book detailing his emotional guilt and how he felt his actions were cowardice. His writing is his way of dealing with his PTSD, and coping with the guilt of decisions made and of those that weren't.