"the American war in Vietnam seemed to me so wrong. Certain blood was being shed for unceartain reasons."
"I went through whole days feeling dizzy with sorrow, I couldn't sleep or eat All I could think about was getting to Canada"
> summer 1968 >introduced to Tim O'Brien >Tim feels shame and thinks Vietnam war is wrong
>eating lunch with his mom on a humid afternoon > Gets Draft Notice on June ,17 ,1968 > decides to head north/ wants to head to Canada >arrives at Tip Top Lodge >meets Elroy Berdahl
> Tim has an internal conflict with his conscious >Doesn't believe in fighting this war but he has to > Man vs Society
>Elroy brought him to Canadian border in a boat >Tim is faced with the descion to head to Canada with no family and be scared of embarasment or, fight in the United states army in Vietnam for something he doesn't beleive in
> realizes going to Canada isn't reality >make his decision to stay and fight and submits against his will >couldn't face the disgrace or mockery >packs up and leaves Tip Top Lodge
>Drives home from Tip Top Lodge >Becomes a solider >fights in Vietnam >survived, and made it home >still feels like a coward for going to war
" and right then I submitted . I would go to war- I would kill maybe die-because I was to embarrassed not to I was a coward I went to war. "