ring.ring. Joe gets to the phone. He needs to get home his father is dead. the though f the phone takes him back to the story of his parents talking on the phone when they first started dating. His mother also played the piano and the playing he remembered from the funeral. I can't hear anything.
Am i awake or asleep?
which is real?
They keep poking my arm. Wait my arm is gone. where did you take Karen's ring? it was on my hand. She never wanted me to go, but still i did. my other arm is not their either. how will i ever hold Karen again?
Why am I not level? I got to kick it off whatever it is. I can't kick. that's why my lower half is light as a feather, my legs are gone. I just want to scream. there is no sound. my jaw is gone, so my tongue, teeth, and palate are also gone. I'm not breathing through my nose. from below my chin out just before my non-existent ears and narrowing at the top of my nose is not there. My eyes must be gone
Why am i here?
memory of a Prussian soldier being eaten by a rat comes to mind and this feeling in my feeling similar. He can't do anything about it because he's just a piece of meat with a mind. Is this a dream? It must have been since now the feeling of the nurse's hands must be me awake. which one is real?
Time stopped some day in September of 1918 for Joe diving into a dugout after hearing a howl. How long has he been in this state? how long did unconsciousness last? He loses track to easily when counting by seconds starting from the point the nurse leaves. he uses what is left of his exposed skin to feel the heat of sunrise to know days. figures the nurse comes six times a day so it must be at 4, 8, 12, 4, 8, 12, etc.
He had no choice in going to war. What kind of liberty was he fighting for? whose liberty? rather have taken the liberty to live then be in this state. many everyday trade their lives for liberty, independence, democracy, freedom, decency, honor, land, or even women. Was it worth it? 1776 america fought for her liberty, but Canada and Austria din't have to. Can you look at a guy and say he's an American who fought for his liberty and anybody can see he's a very different guy from a Canadian who didn't? Life is more valuable then any of these things. right now he was willing to trade them for his old body back.