At home was one of the places I never had any issues with my body. Home was where my family was and they never made me feel like anything less just because of my body. I am not confident in my physical appearance, but at home i guess it doesn't matter.
When I went to school I didn't have very high self-esteem, because I believed that I was not good looking. I also did not have a very approachable impression due to my somewhat serious nature. However, I was able to overcome these insecurities after awhile, and I learned to enjoy my school life thanks to my good friends.
What Matters More?
Despite the acceptance I felt from my friends, I still felt insecure about myself outside due to the world's standards. The world teaches us that self acceptance requires things like good looks, achievements, physically fit, well built body, and etc. I didn't have that which made me feel insecure.
Due to my insecurities i started going to gym, but I only ended up feeling even less confident about myself seeing all the people there. They were fit, well built, strong, and they were physically active. Meanwhile I was just a rookie with no self confidence. After awhile i did end up gaining some muscle and slimmed down, but I still felt like I was lacking something.
Seeing all the people around me made me feel less confident. It was because I kept comparing myself to other people when I should have just been comparing myself with my past self. I always thought my body was nothing impressive, but God showed me that the body He gave me is not something I should take for granted, and that it is more amazing than I believed.
I leave this slot blank, because I learned that it is not about what the eyes see. Being good looking is what the world wants, but it is not what God wants us to focus on. He wants us to focus on ourselves as a person. Who we are and how we live our lives are what matter. I am glad that I discovered this truth, because it played a big part in my own self, and who I am now.