I was the most social and happy girl you could ever meet. I was a little chubby, but that didn't stop me from loving to dance, being silly and playing with friends. I was bullied a bit but stayed positive because I had friends.
When I entered, middle school, all of that started to change. I went from having groups of friends to barely graduating at all from being absent so much. I experienced 7 deaths of close relatives in the family, and I internalized the things that people said about me.
There were days that I would hear people say, she is so weird, she is so fat and ugly, what is wrong with her. I would always be sad a lot for no apparent reason and was very anxious and critical of everything I did as I was afraid of being judged.
I had insomnia and every time I looked at myself in the mirror, I saw an extremely unattractive woman, Deformed almost, i thought that what I thought of myself was what others thought of me.
By the time I started college my mom had been working in the mental field for a while and exposed me to a self-help plan that helps you stay on the road to recovery using your own inside and knowledge of self. I'm lucky to have the support of people I call an angel, who helped me out and gave me hope.
I now work for an awesome organization that is amazing at working in the field with mental health and recovery. I am so glad that my recovery has allowed me to work and provide an education and an insight on the posibility of wellness and recovery.