Less than a week later I was back at 360Kids, and this time instead of being sad I was mad at myself for believing my parents would change. I was never going back. I had all that I needed here. Cathy was my loving mother figure, I had friends, and if I ever wanted I wasn't to far from my siblings school I could go visit them.
Who am I?
As the weeks turned into months I found myself doing things I never thought I would do. I turned to self harm to validate the pain I was feeling on the inside. I started smoking and with Meghan and Eric to try to forget the pain when I cutting didn't help.
I promise you are going to be okay
Occasionally my parents would call and if I was in the mood I would pick up to talk to them. I called my siblings every week, which made them happy and in turn brought me some happiness.
One day when I was talking to Tina she said something that made me take a double take on my life. I left home with the purpose of finding independence, yet all I've done is depend on negative coping mechanisms and new friends instead of myself. I didn't want to loose myself and it was time to get real help.
Daniel was our in house councilor and after one session with him he could tell that I was on the verge of depression. He set me up with a doctor and suggested that I went for counseling with my parents. At first I was hesitant, but I wanted to do it for my siblings. Over the phone I could tell me being away from home was hard and I didn't want them to feel alone like I do.
The first couple sessions with Dr. Flipster seemed pointless. She made us talk about the things that most frustrated us about the other which often lead to yelling. Eventually, though it got better. I started to understand my parents and they were starting to understand me. I don't know what's going to happen next, but wherever I ended up I know I'm going to be okay.