As a child, not yet in school, everything was great. I was happy with myself and who I was. I didn't have a care in the world. I never saw myself as someone who would struggle with a mental disorder and it wasn't apparent to me until I started school.
Going to school for me was definitely a challenge. It looked and seemed more like a prison to me.
I was always the outcast in school. People tended to stay away from me and I had no idea why.
Welcome To 1st Grade
Why can't I make friends?
Yeah maybe I got in trouble a lot with my teacher and maybe I didn't preform well academically like the other kids, but that's only because it was so hard for me to focus and pay attention in class. So much was going on all at once and my brain couldn't process it all.
Ok Class, 1 +1= Mckenzie pay attention
To everyone else, finding friends was easy. For me, not so much. I usually played by myself on the playground or just sat in the sand and watched everyone else have fun without me.
I feel so alone.
My teacher got concerned about me and decided, with my moms permission, to send me to guidance councilor to talk about what I was going through and discuss why I was struggling so much.
I am doing ok and no I haven't. It's so hard for me to concentrate and pay attention in class.
How are you doing today Mckenzie? Have you made any new friends?