The medication did not work. It made me feel sick and didn't help stop my panic attacks and made me feel out of place everywhere I went. I tried different medications, along with different doses but none of it relieved the anxiety.
Then I became reckless and started hanging out with a bad crowd, which lead to drinking and smoking pot. I barely knew myself anymore but most of my anxieties had disappeared.
Using drugs only masked my anxiety for awhile but then the panic attacks started happening while I was drinking or smoking. These attacks came with new symptoms of losing touch with reality and numbing feelings throughout my body. I had lost control of my life completely and just wanted to die because of how I always felt like it was coming anyways.
My parents decided I needed to try to talk to a therapist.
The therapy it self didn't really help, but I was taught a visualization technique that has helped me stay more calm through my attacks. I have also taken up yoga and meditation to help keep my mind and body feeling good.
I've learned to accept my anxiety. My panic attacks still happen but I at least can get through most of them if I remember to use one of the cope techniques I've learned.