As the group of eight Indian girls headed to the Land of Red Apples, Zitkala-Sa and the other felt uncomfortable as "paleface" people watched her. Everyone on the train watched the girls and judged the way they were dressed. The other children pointed at the girls with their mothers, causing her to feel embarrassed. She felt like crying because everyone watched them like they were strange creatures.
Once they made it to the school, she was scared about what was ahead of her. The bright lights and noisy surrounding made her feel uneasy. A stranger had picked Bonnin up and thrown her in the air, she felt insulted because her mother never treated her like a toy. This resulted in the author crying and feeling very frightened. An older girl from her group told her to save her tears until she is in bed. Feeling scared and sad, she continued to ask for her mom and other family members however she was ignored by the strangers around her.
Bonnin was taken to a room full of beds next to each other. She slept in a bed with one of the older girls because she felt comfort. The older girl spoke her mother tongue and that made her feel calm and safe. She realized how unhappy she felt at this place. The new surroundings with the different noises made her feel like she was losing her freedom. She was in a new area with strangers who made her feel like she was not welcomed.
The school made all of the girls take off their traditional clothes and shoes. They were given tight clothes and forced to do their hair differently. Bonnin felt even more sad once her blanket was taken from her. Boys entered the room, making even the bravest girls feel uncomfortable. Their traditional clothes were not respected and were stripped of like it meant nothing to these girls. In the dining room they were supposed to follow orders once a bell rang. There were three steps toollow until they were allowed to eat. The woman in the room stared and judged any girls who did not follow orders.
Judewin, one of the girls, was able to speak some English and she overheard the adults talking about cutting the hair of all the girls. In their culture, mourners had short hair and cowards had shingled hair. This upset the author, so she decided to fight for her hair. This incedent caused her to feel like all of their freedom has been taken away, and the only way she could keep her pride was by running away and hiding.
Because she decided to run away and hide, she ran upstairs and hid under a bed in an empty bedroom. The women eventually found her and dragged her from under the bed. As she kicked and scratched they took her downstairs and tied her to the bed. Despite all of her crying and begging, they cut her hair. This caused Bonnin to lose all her spirit and make her completely unhappy. Since the beginning of the trip she missed her mother and felt nothing but fear and devastation. Instead of having her freedom, she was made to follow orders and do as they say.