With the long-term experience as a hunter that you yourself have acknowledged, I can affirm that there are many other ways to enjoy the same sensation during hunting without killing humans.
You're killing the lives of innocent people, who all deserve the chance at life just as you do. You may be a skilled hunter, but you are not at the top of the social order as you say you are. Your authoritative position still does not condone unlawful behavior.
Because of your psychotic nature at the moment, you are promoting sociopathic values to yourself. Continuation of this is detrimental to you and your well-being, hurting your own mental health. The longer you keep this conflicting mindset, chaos is set to affect your standard thought process.