In my story "A Catcher in the Rye" i wrote about my crazy couple of nights i spent in New York after i left Pency early.And how i eventually ended up back home and then sent to a hospital. Throughout the story i was alone most of the time and was very depressed, by reading you could probably tell something wasn't right. My thoughts were sporadic and i hated who i was. I had crazy thought of suicide and running away, i always though of Allie or Pheobe at these low points. I always would compare myself to them and say how they are more successful than i ever would be.
Scene 1- Holden meets with Mr.Spencer before he leaves Pency.
I have a lousy vocabulary and partly because I act quite young for my age sometimes. I was sixteen then, and I'm seventeen now, and sometimes I act like I'm about thirteen.
After Holden gets Sunny to leave and he is alone
Self loathing is the action in which someone or something has a hatred of what they are or what they do. Self Loathing can result in lack of confidence in oneself and bad habbits.
In this scene Holden was asked to come by his History teacher's house before he left pency. While he was there His history teacher, Mr.Spencer, lectured him about how he never applied himself to becoming a good student.
In this scene Holden was depressed after he had ordered a prostitute named sunny to his room and had her leave without doing anything because he realized he just wanted someone to talk to.
"I felt so depressed, you can't imagine. What I did, I started talking, sort of out loud, to Allie. I do that sometimes when I get very depressed. (Salinger)"