No! I don't want to leave fisherfather and fishermother!
Know your place!
I guess Gull is all I have.
So, young man, what is your name?
No! You must never reveal your true identity!
In the beginning, Nynyve, a sorceress, came by the sea to take young Mordred to live with his real mother, Morgause and King Lothe in Lothian. He did not know his actual mother and father.. and the fact that his father tried to kill him when he was a baby.
Lady of the Lake
Life in Lothian was harsh, Nynve had left Mordred alone with a white bratchet he named Gull. King Lothe, his sons, and even Mordred's own mother hated him living there.
Losing a Soul
Is that Merlin?
When Mordred had found the truth he was a child of incest and the truth about how King Arthur tried to kill him, he spends years wanting to meet him, hating him, wanting to know why he tried to kill him. When he met him, he couldn't reveal his true identity yet.
In the End
I am sorry father,
As years go by, Arthur asks him to become a knight of the round table, but Mordred doesn't believe he's able to be one. His aunt Morgan le Fay tells him constantly that he needs to accept his fate and kill Arthur so she can assume the throne. Nynyve says otherwise, and Mordred himself doesn't want to kill him, so he goes to the lady of the lake to ask how to change his fate.
How can I change my fate?
A young maiden Mordred had run into while in the woods, asked him to avenge her brother, had eventually developed a mutual attraction with Mordred. Her name is Lynette. It all ended as soon as she found out his real identity. He had lost all hope and wanted to stop feeling pain, especially from not being able to marry Lynette, Gull and Nynyve being killed, he wanted to lose his soul and give it to someone he trusted, but he accidentally released Merlin, who was trapped in a raven's body, who then stole his soul.
No, my soul!
Due to Mordred losing his soul, he wouldn't feel any emotional pain. Mordred unable to fight his faith, He was led to his downfall to fight his destiny. He ended up killing Arthur, but he finally got what he wanted, King Arthur finally claimed him as his son.