Dad was not able to stay hopeful after the tragedy...
I can't do it anymore. I have nothing left.Please God save me.
He watched his friends die from the gruesome war...
His commanders were unable to save them and left with guilt.
The struggle of wanting to end his life because of the immense pain yet still praying and asking not to die because of the fear of death was unbearable. The soldier within could not forgot all he has lost. War can take your mental and physical wellbeing and destroy it.
Choosing to live with no hope was difficult, but let go of life was harder.
Life without:HopeSanityPhysical health
He stayed awake at night for a few years. Unable to let go of his demons, ones that appeared from him not letting go of himself.