It's barely morning and we're already awake,my grandmother in the kitchen ironingour Sunday clothes. I can hear daddy coughing in his bed, a cough likehe'll never catch his breath. The sound catches in my chest as I'm pulling my dress over my head. Hold my own breath until the coughing stops. Still, I hear him pad through the living room hear the squeak of the front screen door andknow, he's made it to the porch swing, to smoke a cigarette. My grandfather doesn't believe in a God that won't let him smokeor have a cold beer on a Friday nighta God that tells us all the world is ending so that Ya'll walk through this worldafraid as cats
TWO GODS.TWO WORLDS
Your God is not my God, he says.His cough moves through the air back into our room where the light is almost blue, the white winter sun painting it. I wish the coughing would stop. I wish he would put on sunday clothes,take my hand, walk with usdown the road. Jehovah's Witnesses believe that everyone who doesn't follow God's word will be destroyed in a great battle called Armageddon. And when the battle is done there will be a fresh new world a nicer more peaceful world.But I want the world where my daddy is and don't know why anybody's God would make me have to chooe.
I chose this poem because I agree with, and relate to some of it. Her grandfather (daddy) smokes and drinks, but for me, it's my ex-stepdad. When he and my mother were still together, when I was really young, he smoked. A lot. He also drank a lot. We also didn't have the same beliefs. He got sick a lot too. I don't know the reason he quit smoking, but he did. It was after he got really sick.