No one loves me. No one is there for me. I feel so lonely.
It's been 2 years when the Covid-19 pandemic happens
what should I do?
Since the pandemic started I'm not the usual person that I know. I always complain about everything because it's so hard to adjust to the usual routine that I have. I miss being outside with friends and I can't cope up with the rules that we should follow.
And at the end of the day, only God can be our sanctuary and anchor and He is the only one that can help us in times of suffering.
It gives me hard time being stuck in the house because of the pandemic. My mental health is not good because I experience different feelings like anxiety, overthinking, stress, and feelings that I can't describe. Everyone thinks that I'm okay but deep inside I'm not. I usually fake my expressions every day when someone sees me.
I stop those things that I love to do. I forgot the reasons behind why I should chase my dreams in life. I always think negative thoughts and I can find happiness inside me. I feel that I'm incomplete and I don't even care for myself lately.
At this time of challenges in my life that I facing today, I can say that I'm still blessed in my life. It is not easy to face it but I'm doing my very best to take on this challenge. I learn to be positive as always and I increase my faith in the Lord by the people around me and the motivational words that I read every day. By that challenge, I'm learning how to love myself more, that I should focus on the things that help me grow and I should always encourage myself that I always do to others.
God is truly amazing because He never fails me. He used some instruments to wake me up in my dark nightmare. He reminds me of something that I should go on in my life because I'm His masterpiece and He has a great plan for me. I always think that God gives me this challenge because He knows that I can overcome it. By His love and grace, He saves me again from the darkness. My hope and faith in Him remain in my heart.