The first year I went to pride parade, I was amazed. I saw people who were so comfortable with who they were. They had found themselves.
I had no idea who I was, so I was surprised by how people could be so confident with who they were. I decided I wanted to find myself, whoever I was. I felt like it would take a while, but confidence is very important, as is being yourself.
A year or two after deciding to find myself, I felt I had no personality and therefore I was pointless. There was no point of me if I was nobody with nothing to offer. I felt isolated from the rest of the world.
I tried finding myself in many different ways. I never seemed to fit with them. No matter who I pretended to be, I never seemed to fit in with that. I didn't feel like everyone else I met. I felt weird.
I am a llama.
I had always felt out of place, like when my friends were making that’s what she said jokes, asking girls out to dance, and making ships with a boy and a girl. After a fair amount of time (A few years) I figured out I was part of the lgbt+ community. I finally felt like I knew a part of my identity better and had figured out one piece of who I was.