"Remember , my dear Govinda, the world of appearances is transitory, the style of our clothes and hair is extremely transitory. Our hair and bodies are themselves transitory" (93).
"Forgive me, Siddhartha, you do not look like a pilgrim. You are wearing the clothes of a rich man, you are wearing the shoes of a man of fashion, and your perfumed hair is not the hair of a pilgrim, it is not the hair of a Samana" (93).
After escaping from his life as a gambler, full of despair, Siddhartha comes near a river and plans to commit suicide. "Might the fishes and crocodiles devour him, might the demons tear him to little pieces!" (89). This moment is intense, Siddhartha becomes so miserable that he wishes to die. This is the greatest challenge the initiate will experience in his journey, and he must surrender himself to it. (Abyss)
However, just as he is about to jump into the river, "from a remote part of his soul, from the past of his tired life, he heard a sound. It was one word, one syllable, which without thinking he spoke indistinctly, the ancient beginning and ending of all Brahmin prayers, the holy Om" (89). At this moment, Siddhartha has a revelation, that this deed he was about to commit was so foolish. The one word "Om" symbolizes the beginning of his new life, a life in which there is hope and renewal and an end to search and suffering. He then falls asleep.
Siddhartha wakes up to find his friend, Govinda, who had been watching over him. However, Govinda does not recognize Siddhartha immediately. The two talk about their lives, reunited after many years. Siddhartha tells Govinda that he too is making a pilgrimage to which Govinda questions his appearance as a rich man. Siddhartha responds wisely, his answer reflecting his learnings, and the two depart and Sidhartha feels full of love for his friend and for the world. He is happy and renewed.
Siddhartha realizes how his quest has brought him to the same state that he was in years ago as a child. unknowing and "naked". After all these years of search, he still ends up without possessions. But he realizes that "[he] had to experience despair, [he] had to sink to the greatest mental depths, to thoughts of suicide, in order to experience grace, to hear Om again, to sleep deeply again and to awaken refreshed again" (97). Siddhartha does not feel unhappy, he realizes that it was crucial to face and conquer the challenges he experienced in his life with Kamaswami to ascend to his better self, to get rid of the doubts in his mind, to gain new strength. For this reason, the initiate feels extreme happiness. He finally is able to directly connect to the notion that a teacher cannon teach a person how to live, after experiencing all the torment of his "past life", Siddhartha feels like a new person, like the emptiness and sorrow within him, has finally died, and a new Siddhartha is born. From this, he revelates that everything is transitory.