It was not the original plan. I am worried that my job will fire me because of all the time off I will need. I was saving up to buy a car, but now that must go to rent. I am worried about the future now.
I get where you are coming from and how your feelings may be hurt. What is making you so against going to the 28-day inpatient rehab?
“I think worrying about the future and the unknown to some extent is human nature. When there is a situation you cannot control, try to find little things in the situation you can control like your thoughts, actions, and perspective on the situation. Going off today’s group, what are some positives you can think of to going to rehab?”
I am certainly less likely to relapse once it is over. I do not want to do drugs anymore. I am very proud I have not turned to cocaine in the past 8 months, but I have tried other drugs like Xanax and fentanyl which has got me in trouble this time
You should be very proud that you have not used your drug of choice. That is a very hard thing to do. Maybe the intensive rehab program can help you stay away from the other drugs that you have used in place of the cocaine
I really do want to stay sober, but staying sober is way harder than using
Addiction is a disease and is very hard to overcome. Staying sober is incredibly hard. It is important to try to find a support system whether it is your family, friends that are good influences, or people from NA that you can relate to
I mean some people have been sober 20 plus years and then something snapped in their brain, and they turned back to substances. At least with the inpatient rehab, the intensive groups plant a seed in your brain that you need to change whether you want to or not
Do you want to change? You have been in this situation 5 other times. Ultimately, the rehab groups can plant a seed for change, but the growth and change must come from you. If you are not motivated, you are more likely to relapse when you leave rehab. We have talked a lot about motivation in previous groups
Yes, I want to change this time and I do think I need inpatient rehab to do it. I do not want to live under my addiction anymore. I am motivated to change for my family but also for myself too. I deserve a better life and a relationship with my nieces and nephews
So how did this conversation and the groups in the past week help you?
Now, I think that I was letting my automatic negative thoughts get in my own way. I do want to go to rehab soon and change. I just must call every morning to find a bed. I believe if I change my patterns, I will have a better and healthier life. I just must go one step at a time.