they were ordered to undress and a pile our strpped uniforms in a cornor. in a another cornor there were stacks clothes silks of bright red and blue and purple and green. gypsy clothes. now we knew who fed the fires of birkenau while we waited for our turn outside. i was still crying as i pulled pulled me shirt off and added it to the pile. the tears came unbidden, but i didn't try to stop them. some of the other men were crying most weren't. i didn't care. i was teired. terid of fighting . terid of being brave. teried of surviving
they wipped us beat us again to herd us into the next room , where showerheads lined the celing. i rembered what the man on the train ha said, that you deid fastest if you stood underneath one of the shower heads , where the gass came from. instead i moved awawy from them near one of the stone colums set throught the room. they packed un in again, just like on the train, but there was still a littke room to move. when the door clanked shut, some of the men cried out by now we all knew why we were here and what they were going to do to us.
still the gass didn't come. so i pulled to my feet and pushed my way throught the men untill i was standing right underneeth one of the shower heads. go on! i yelled at the showerhead. go on , do it! i dare you ! i laughed again. what are you wwaiting for? i cried kill me! i give up! you win! the pips rattled and moaned. something was finally coming out =. the men in the roo got quit, like they were holding there breath, and i reached my arms up toward the ceiling. kill me i prayed please kill me and put an end to this im ready. water rained down on me freezing water so cold it made me scream. water not gass! i was going to live!
some of the poeple paniked and beat on the door, yelling for the nazi's to let us out, to have mercy,to spare us. some poeple cursed them. some people closed there eyes and muttered prayers. some just stared off into space, waiting to die. tears streamed down my face, tears i didn't knoe had left, and i slid down the colum to the ground burying my head in my head in my hands. mother,father,my aunts and uncles,my cousins, my friends form krawko, i missed them all so much.