Well, I would advise that you get the surgery either way because it is important for your health, but I understand why you feel this way. College can be very stressful. We need to figure out a way for you manage your stress safely.
Hi Braden, How have you been feeling since you've been home from rehab?
I know. The way I used to manage my stress was dangerous, I've heard it all, I understand. Trust me I'm paying for it now, Hadley won't talk to me, my parents are mad at me still, no one trust me to be alone, all of the medicine cabinets are locked and now I don't even trust myself.
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I feel a lot better now, I've just got a lot going on with getting this surgery for my shoulder and college. I'm worried that after I get this surgery I won't be able to swim as fast and Stanford won't want me.
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You could just let her know how you are doing. I am sure she still cares about you. If she is the type of girl you described I'm sure she will forgive you, so at least you will be able tell her how you feel and move on.
Nothing is that important, you should risk your health. I'm sure that your coach and your parents would have understood if you weren't doing as good as you used to, you were injured.
But enough about that, we need to get down to the real reason you're here. Your parents told me about your injury and the medication that you were prescribed. Why do you think it has came to this?
I feel like I pushed myself to much, I feel like I was trying to keep up with every ones expectations of me and I was so focused on that that I just over did it and I became dependent on the medicine without even realizing it.
I know I just had a lot riding on my swimming times. I have to opportunity to go to Stanford because of my times in the pool. I didn't want to risk that.
Yeah I guess you're right.
Well if you think you are in an ok place mentally then you should reach out to her. Maybe just to get some closure. I don't think it would hurt to just reach out.
Those people will eventually trust you aging, but you have to show them that you have changed and you can be trusted again. I know you might feel like no one trust you but they just want to keep you safe. You really worried everyone: your mom, your dad, your friends and Hadley.
She was the best thing that ever happened to me and I lost her. She was really worried about me I never should have let that happen. She should have never had to go through this, She was already going through enough.
I know. I just want to apologize to everyone: my parents, my friends, but mainly Hadley.
I would but I feel like it would do more damage than anything. She seems happy now, a lot happier then I made her. She's seeing a new guy, she just got into her dream college, and I don't want to cause any more problems.